Embrace the change

yezzz!!... today... we are officially no longer a 'shell family'.  We have to learn to live beyond our means.  No longer pampered with medical care from the best medical facilities in the country.  We can still do but the cost is on us.  As a result of being pampered for the past 32 years, we never bother to take health insurance as we thought that all is taken care of till we die..
How can we ever think like that? regrets..regrets..

yezz... we have to adjust to a different way of living.  No more.. "buy as you go".  No more free swimming pool. (It's not free actually.. but ya.. at my level, I would think its free :)

Well.. what else can I say?  No matter how much I ramble, I have to embrace this change in my life.  For all you know, this could be a blessing in disguise...cause God's blessing may come in the form of raindrops or tears in your eyes.

Do I have a plan yet?  No...  am still trying to adjust myself.  However, am already thinking to declutter my life first...

cheers for today
Mizz T

Heloo New Year

Helooo...... New Year 2016...

It's been 27 days into the new year. 

This year, life has gone into a new phase. 

Only the youngest kid is in secondary school; meaning a few more years of early morning chauffers. Hubby has lost his job.  The dough that has fed us for 32 years is not available anymore.  So... scrap off that dream of becoming a lady of leisure. Going into the next half a century old is on the horizon.  (How will it feel?)

Health issues is getting complicated.  Lots of discoveries..... Lots of maintenance to do and it is no longer fully supported.  Have to restructure our spending habits, health habits, work and play habits.
Zhumba has long been forgotten.  I can't imagine how will I start again.  And there is no shoes to zhumba with.

Yes, I have two more portmeirion items to receive.  Last order is February.  After this, its a no..no..
There are now other priorities which I cannot deny....sigh!!....

Yes, it is a new phase in my life now.  With God's strength, I will surely survive!!

cheers
Mizz T

 Enjoy my favourite flower

oh..what a feeling... !!!

It's less than a month to Christmas.  The Christmas tree has been put up by the kids. Half decorated as the trimmings are not enough.  I want a red and white theme this year.

Workaholic mood has somehow subside.  And to make matters worse, things are not looking great in the months to come in my workplace.  Whatever may come, I should be grateful if I still keep my job.  And like rubbing salt to the wound, hubby has lost his job too.

Thank God, as of now I no longer go crazy each time I see portmeirion items on sale.  In fact, I have already thought of trimming what I already have in my home.  So far I only used a quarter of my collection.  Such a waste of money as those things really cost a bomb each.

Am I too late if I want to start saving?  Will be half a century old next year.  No personal savings, no health insurance under my name... 'sigh'.... I can only pray that God will grant me good health in the years to come.  Yes.. I always believe in ..'you reap what you sow'....  am reaping now!

Can't help feeling empty..numb...  Sometimes I think God has ignored me.  Or maybe I failed to realize his presence or acknowledge his blessings.

"don't know what else to say"...
Mizz T

Too little time.. Too much to do..

yess... that's what I'm feeling right now.  There's too much to do and too little time.  But... isn't there 24 hours of time for everybody?  So I think, my problem is too much things shoved into a little container?

Maybe, I said Yes... too often as I find it difficult to say No.. most of the time.. :(

When will I ever learn to set my priorities and let go of unnecessary clutter?  Define unnecessary clutter...

I am tired..really..really.. tired!! All the time.  Even when I am on leave, I am still tired in a different setting... sigh...!!

Soo... ya... am just releasing that frustration here.  Have not experienced 'boring' for a long.. long time already...

Mizz T

hello 2015...

hi..hi.. looks like this is my first posting for 2015.  haiyoo... life has been extremely busy.  and honestly... facebook is preferred because it is more accessible and very mobile.

somehow though, I missed blogging.  actually lots of happening around but too lazy to write.  even right now, am freely writing whatever that popped into my mind and don't care about caps, small letters, big letters...  hahahahaha.

oklah... dah kebuntuan idea.  don't know what else to say, sajer sajer nak jengok blog ini.  setiap kali tengok blog orang, datang lah semangat nak menulis.  then... off it goes again.

hmm.. will be thinking what to write next.

till next time..
Ms T

It's the last day of the year!!

oh..my!..oh.. my!  Before you know it, it's already the last day of the year of 2014.

How fast time flies...  My projects are mostly half way; at work and at home.

The clutter in my closet and under the beds which I intend to clear in the beginning of 2014 is still there!  Alas... the many projects at work which was planned in the beginning of this year is still nowhere to be seen. *sigh*..

yess, I am disappointed with myself.. to the max.  What should I do about it?  Nothing I guess..

So.. I just let it be....  The saying goes.. we humans can plan.. but God Almighty will be the one who determined if it is to come to pass or not.

Today, I am not going to reminisce on what I have achieved or not achieved.  It's such a cliché!

Today, I am going to give Thanks to the Lord, for by his grace and mercy, he has blessed me with good health and many other blessings which I could not see with my naked eyes.  He has given me a chance to go through 2014 and I pray that he will continue to bless me into another new year.

By the way, I am also not going to do anymore new year resolutions.  But I do want to try to live a simple life in the years to come.

Thank you Lord.

Happy and blessed New Year everyone

cheers
Mizz T

Life without FaceBook

Finally..........., I had the nerve to go off FB after 3 and half years being a slave to it.

And a slave I was.  I had wasted millions of hours on it. If I don't checked it in a single day, I felt empty, life is not complete...lol.. When I think of the things I could do instead, wow... I could earn a degree, complete all my half read novels and clear all the pending clutter in my home.

Then, there's feelings which are hurt by some people's remarks and being lied to.  And the feeling of being inadequate when no one likes your post.  Not to mention the pressure of wanting to post every single thing I did and eat in one day.  And photos I must take and share.  Selfies..., wefies.. just to follow the trend.  And other temptations that lay before me..  Oh dear me!!... I feel silly thinking about it now. Thank God, I have never fall prey to any money scam yet.

I prayed for God to give me strength.  I guess he did.  On the first day of advent, I deactivate my FB.  How did I feel?  I'm still alive, my mind is clearer, I'm able to focus more in my work.  I did not miss it from day 1.   I even thought of deleting it.  But I still miss my close friends in there.  So it will remain, but somehow this time I control it, not the other way round. 

I feel so good..., I have to record it here.

cheers
Mizz T

Lelengau

Am not talking about lagu 'lelengau' by Nai Dinamik.  Am thinking of my long neglected blog.  I have abandoned it for a few years in favor of Facebook.  Now, I am tired of Facebook and start to miss blog writings.

So many happenings that i have missed in my blogs; lots of things i would love to write about.  (Don't care if people read it or not, as long as i read it :).   Alass!!...time is always an issue.  Even though it is said;  If you don't have time, you have to make time.

Then there's the fact that my laptop has gone to RIP.  There's only the smartphone to play with.  Have not tried to post blogs with it yet.  Will try if i am desperate.  Now it's either the office computer, my daughter's desk top or hubby's laptop. (Hubby is quite stingy though).. hahahaha.  Thought of repairing my laptop but have been advised that it's cheaper to buy a new one.  Owh..well.. to buy a new one has so many implication.. on my pocket, on my kids... 'sigh'....

hmmm... see.. time has called me to get back to work now.

hope to be back with stories soon.

cheers
Mizz T

WELCOME

Selamat Taun Baru 2013

Endu Tupai is back again after a long break of almost a year.  Have been busy facebooking and attending to commitments both business and personal.  Endu Tupai wants to slow down this year.  And realised that she missed blogging.  Lo and behold, in this new year, she has created a brand new blog, with a brand new name.

Welcome to Tupai Talks.   Endu Tupai has apparently turned 'ribai"... ahaks....!!

Thank you for your visit.

cheers
mizz tupai engkrabak